Fresh New Start

I decided to start over.

I have been sick for the past two months with mono and over that time of sitting alone in my room, watching movies, writing in my old fashioned diary, and coloring I have had plenty of time to think and reflect over so much in my life.

I think that starting over like this will help me get through the next few weeks. So many of my friends are graduating and moving on to bigger and better things. I'm so proud of all of them, but I can't help but get a little sad at the fact that I'm going to be stuck behind, staying one more semester in college. I know it's normal, and nothing to be embarrassed about, but I will be saying goodbye to so many people. I'm not a big person on change.

To be honest, part of me is jealous of them. Moving on, starting with their fresh new life of grad school or a "big kid" job. But the other part of me is relieved. I have one more year to think about what I want to do, one more year to pray that the job market gets better and to figure out where I want to go with my life.

I was talking to one of my good friends the other day, she is graduating in three weeks, and she was expressing how scared she was about graduating. She told me she was jealous that I got to stay back and stay "free" in college. I can understand where she is coming from because I can guarantee that if I were about to graduate, I would be going insane at this moment. So all I can say is, cherish these last few weeks of college life, remember the moments you shared with the people you met, and move forward with confidence and hope.